Time flies...

Wow, I cannot believe it has been almost 3 years exactly since my last entry. So much has happend, and I don't know why I stopped blogging. It really is therapeutic. Speaking of therapy...YEP I'm going now. Another thing that I CANNOT believe took me so long to do. It is so freeing to pour out all my thoughts and feelings to an impartial person. Although my phone calls with Perri are just as freeing and her advice is very similar to my therapist.

Speaking of Perri - where oh where would I be without her. She is such a terrific friend! She is smart, funny, so full of life and always there when I need her. She just turned the big 50, so we went to Atlantic City to celebrate. Kara came with and it was a good trip. It did reconfirm that Eleuthera shall remain a "two-some".

Eleuthera...this will be our fourth trip!! We are heading out May 9th and will return on the 22nd. Can't wait! We always have so much fun...mostly doing alot of nothing...LOL!! No, we are busy - snorkeling, shelling, shelling, snorkeling, um yeah did I mention shelling??? We have now moved up the coast to Gregorytown and found a great place to stay.

Dorrell is our ever present bff in Eleuthera. He picks us up from the airport every year without fail, and rents us a car. I never thought I would say this, but Thank God for that DOG ATTACK in 2008...LOL

Well, that's it for not, I am going to try to be more consistent with my blogging as I do find it fun as well as a good outlet for one's feelings.

Where does the time go????

I can't believe it has been almost 3 WEEKS since we've been home from Eleuthera!! It feels like just yesterday I made the mad dash at 1 a.m. to pick up Perri for the start of our journey! I had such a great time this year in Eleuthera. We met lots of new people, found the night-life in Eleuthera (yes, nightlife!), and had a relaxing time. Being with Perri for 9 days just reconfirmed what a great friendship we have and how much I truly think of her as my big sis!! She is so much fun to be around and the two of us together....FUGITABOUTIT!!!! LOL

Got lots of attention while there, that was a big confidence booster! Did feel bad though, 'cause people kept asking if Perri was my mom. I SO DON'T think she looks old enough to be my mom. I hope that doesn't deter her from going places with me. I LOVE her youthful spirit and I think she's beautiful! She may not have felt it was a compliment, but on the upside...I would be proud to be her daughter!!

OMG...and who BUT Perri could get our rental that we promised not to "drive in the sand", off the grassy cliff that I managed to wedge us on with the back rear tire completely off the ground and the front bumper nearly buried in sand!! She told me to MOVE! and she floored that bad-boy - door open and all! The car lurched forward, sand went flying, the was door swinging...but she got it out of the hole I managed to get us in. The two of us sat there laughing so hard, I thought we were going to be our pants!!!

Vacation was great, but now I'm home and back to reality. I'm so cornfused right now...life has thrown some tings at me that I just don't want to deal with. I keep telling Perri I'm having a mid-life crisis, but she assures me I'm too young...(Are you sure???) 'Cause I really think I want to go buy a two-seater and drive off into the sunset...

Maybe not that drastic...but I am just not sure about alot of things. I'm torn between being in school and being at home, being at work and being at home, being in a relationship and not being in one, Oye Vay!! It's enough to drive a person crazy.

I didn't call home much while I was in Eleuthera and it didn't really bother me...not sure if that is a good or bad thing. The house was not as bad as I expected, but certainly not the way it was when I left. Lauren had terrible allergies while I was gone, that luckily mom and dad took care of. Thank goodness they are so close!!

I'm just about finished with this semester. Managed to get an A in English, Student Development and Trial Practice thus far. Still awaiting my Philosophy grade...fingers crossed for a A!

Counting down the days

What a week this has been! I did make good on my promise to clean the house...spent the entire weekend doing it! Needless to say I have been the "you better keep the house clean" nazi all week. I got my hair cut, not sure about that...I think I like it. I weighed in...am down 20 lbs!!! Very excited about that :-) Except for the fact that I have to safety pin my work pants so they don't fall down...guess I will need to go shopping at some point. Work has been so so crazy!!
Finally closed the big deal we have been working on!!

I'm counting down the days to Eleuthera...18 to go. What should I pack? Capris, shorts, swimsuits, how many of each....oh man, packing is the MOST stressful part of vacation. OMG...I haven't been tanning nearly as much as I did last year, hope I don't burn. Guess I better call sometime next week to confirm our arrival at the airport...don't want to walk from GHB to Rainbow Bay. So much to do and so little time....

Holy Hell...I almost forgot my most important thing this week...my academic renewal was granted so I will graduate Summa Cum Laude!!! I am beyond happy about that...hopefully I will have all my special peeps at graduation next May...(when we get back from Eleuthera of course! OR before we go...lol)

Why...

I am so annoyed with my DH right now!! What the fuck does he do all day when he's off?? Laundry doesn't wash itself, groceries don't magically appear and shoes cannot walk themselves back to the closet. Why can't he get that through his thick head? UGH!!!

I was informed that it's my job to keep the house clean and that I let it get out of control!!??!! Wah, waht????? Well, I've got news for you buddy...tomorrow I am going to do MY job and clean OUR house...yep and anything that is out of place (that belongs to you or the children) is going in the T R A S H...I'm not asking questions, I'm just putting shit in a trash bag and taking it to the curb!!

Not only am I blessed to have a mule for a hubby...(and not the good kind of mule either!), but I had to forgo my daughters field trip this morning because of work. So, I should probably start working on my acceptance speech for the "WORST Mother of the Year" award. I felt awful and she was crying...I tried to console her to no avail. Finally I told her to just "get a grip", there will be other field trips...YEP, definitely think I will be the leading nominee this year...

I'm a horrible mom...why on earth was I given the responsibility to care for two children?? Between work and school I feel like I have failed them...I have slacked on helping Lauren with homework, checking Wesley's homework, chaperoning field trips, hell sometimes I can't even manage to make dinner...OMG...Calgon take me away!!!!!!!!!!!!

The countdown is on to Eleuthera...26 days (and counting...daily...hourly...by the minute!!)

Went tanning on Monday, must have miscommunicated with girl behind the counter 'cause my bed was set for 15 minutes...keep in mind that was only the fourth visit...ummmm yeahhhh...my ass, thighs and belly were crispy fried! But, I went tanning again today and everything is all good, except for the fact that my ass checks itch like hell (dry skin from the burn!) Hey, at least my boobies didn't burn!

Cute, random things....

Lauren & I were getting ready yesterday (our normal, hurry-up...OMG you are going to miss the bus morning!) and she says out of the blue

"it's not hard to be a pig you know? Al l you have to do is snort and root around in the garbage for food!" Uh...okay...thanks! Good info to have in case I ever want a career change??

As she was getting ready to make the mad dash out the door, I suggested that instead of wearing her jeans tucked into her boots, she just pull the jeans over the boots to which she replied , "Why? So, I don't look like a swashbuckling pirate?"....UMMMMM....no of course not...it was just a suggestion. (Note: Wesley & I do refer to them as her pirate boots...hmmmm...yeah okay)

I was in class last night and the following text "conversation" went on between Wesley & I...I burst out laughing in class and got the evil eye from the professor and a couple of WTF looks from my classmates....OOPS!!

ME: R u okay? Did u finish homework?
W: Yeah. I finished my late work. And im workin on these stupid essays
ME: LOL...u will do good...ur a good writer :-)
W: Well thank u. Ur so kind lol. Im bored though!
ME: Sorry...u could be in stupid philosophy class like me

The next text is what sent me into hysterics!! LMAO

W: U must understand the way of the human young grass hopper...lol

Ahhhh...I think he has my sense of humor! And a final tidbit to leave you with...

Lauren was doing another mad dash out the door this morning as I yelled to her "don't forget to give (DOOR CLOSES)....nevermind....(DOOR OPENS)..."I know MOM...give my teacher the note...love you!"....Love (DOOR CLOSES)u too.....(DOOR OPENS)...."By the way MOM...u just need a light jacket...it feels like spring (DOOR CLOSES)....(DOOR OPENS)...yeah, like spring time!"...."Thank (DOOR CLOSES).....

That was awfully sweet of her to let me know the weather...I'm sure the fact that she had on a hoodie and her down winter coat had nothing to do with her weather report...LOL!

Procrastination..ation...ation

I've had my philosophy test for two weeks now; it's due tonight and I've answered oh... 3 of the 35 questions!! The test might as well be written in some foreign language...WTH...I have NO clue what is going on. Oy Vey...This is not like me. I need a good excuse to give the professor...quick someone think of one for me...LOL

I'm pretty sure that writing an English paper every week, for the past five weeks fried my brain! Oh and don't forget the 10 page research paper. Surely I suffered some kind of mental damage (overuse of the brain, too many hours staring at a blank word document...something happend folks...no seriously, I'm sure of it!)

I was going to take four classes this summer (2 the first 6 weeks and 2 the second 6 weeks), but I just don't think I can do it. I'm tired, I don't want to do homework or study. I want to go to the gym, watch my 50,000 DVR'd shows that I haven't seen, take L to the park or play Guitar Hero with W & L. UGHHH!!! I want my mommmmyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!

(***SLAP***) Okay, I'm Done Whining!

So, I weighed in on Saturday...lost 2 more pounds (in your face Calamari & Pom Tini's!!) Total weight loss in last 5 weeks is 12 pounds :-) My DH thinks I'm only trying to lose weight to go to Eleuthera, but I'm not! I'm losing weight for me, cuz I'm really not happy with my weight. Of course these are my own self-confidence, food issue, stress related issues. What Ever!! I just want to be the skinny bitch I used to be, what's wrong with that??

Chatted on FB lastnight with my Colorado BF...hard to believe she's been gone 3 years now! I miss her...it was nice having a buddy 10 houses down that I could go have a cup of tea with and chit chat or run with at 6 am...(neither of us wanted to wake the house or let each other down, so we were always out there waiting for each other..lol) and she has and OCD/Type A thing going on too...friends like that are hard to find...trust me...I know!

She has a lot on her plate...her hubby is not doing well, yet I am amazed at how she manages to keep it all together. She is strong and courageous, but I know she's hurting on the inside. I wish there was more that I could do. I feel helpless telling her "I'm here if you need ANYTHING, and praying that he gets better. Why can't I have a private jet or something, then I could bring Starbucks to the hospital. Her daughter is blossoming into a beautiful young lady. Lord, let there be a light at the end of the dark tunnel. (please!) T - if you are reading this...know that I think about you, miss you and I am here for you day or night!!

I have very few friends...never was much of the social butterfly. But I have learned that the few friendships I have are real and true and genuine and I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world!

Colorado Visit November 2006

Something New..............

The countdown is on for our next "momcation". P and I have booked flights, secured a house and even have some plans for when we get there. K struck out on the second attempt to secure time off. BOOO!! If I had the phone number to her boss, I would call and tell her she's a big meanie!! Anonymously of course!! LOL

Speaking of getting back to Eleuthera, we have started a blog about our travels. You can read all about our first trip...okay, well right now you can only read mine and P's entry about the plane ride to Eleuthera. But more is coming. Get on the ball Kara and write your damn entry!! LOL

http://thegirlzdoeleuthera.blogspot.com

OHHHHH!!! I'm a little late, but THANKS BECKY for reading my blog! I'm so excited that someone other than my BF reads me :-) Oh one day to be a famous blog-her...LOL

Well, I better get my arse in gear and do some work seeing how Monday is my short day and all. Eleuthera 2010 Anyone?????